It’s a really lengthy post. A biography of sorts relating to the spiritual struggles I’ve been through. I rarely ever talk about this with people, I think I’ve only really told a couple of really close friends all this. Meh.
When I get home from work I will post a terribly long post of thoughts that have repeatedly occured during work. Be prepared. Or actually, I’ll just put the “read more” link to protect your dashes and it will allow those who want to know the opportunity to dissect my thoughts and struggles.
I cannot reiterate to you enough how much it sucks to roll out of bed, roll to the bathroom to look acceptable in public, roll around in clean laundry until you find appropriate work clothing and then roll to your car WHERE CATS SEEM TO MIGRATE TO, HOLD YOUR BREATH AND GET INTO THE CAR HOPING THAT THE ENGINE SCARES THEM AWAY
and then get to work, in traffic, with angry Houstonian drivers.
I actually got this old film camera recently on ebay so I've been playing around with it! A lot of pictures turned out weird because of the fact that I'm still playing around and figuring things out, but i loveeee it though. :)
aww, I wish developing film wasn’t so pricey! your photos are making me want to whip out the handy pink holga and snap some photos! :]
My maternal grandmother (the only living one) was at home cooking dinner when I surprised her with a visit. She hasn’t ever seen me behind a wheel (every time we visit Houston, my parents drive, not me) and she recognized my car as my uncles car but…with a female inside. So she kind of hid away, wanting strangers to leave me alone. Finally after she looked through her peephole and saw what she thought was my mom, she let me in, and said, Oh, Tina…I thought you were Lan (my mom.)
ANYWAYS, interesting conversation, I suppose Crystal isn’t the only one pressured into settling down since my grandmother straight up asked, in Vietnamese, mind you
"So…why aren’t you engaged yet…you’re 20. Pretty old. Sooner or later you won’t find anyone and you’ll be alone."
I wanted to laugh, but I calmly explained to her that my main goal was to have graduated both undergrad and graduate school and have a pretty stable job before thinking about settling down. Also, the requirements for the guy I would settle with would require the same things…a stable job for a HUGE RING.
She just kind of stared at me.
"I’m telling you, you better find someone now.”
this is totally opposite of what my paternal grandmother said
"NO BOYS, EVER. YOU CAN MAKE ME HAPPY AND BE LIKE LINDA. GOOD JOB, LOTS OF MONEY, NO NEED FOR MEN.”
unfortunately, at the time Linda was not married, and 4 years after my grandmother had passed, she had married.
It was sweet talking to her (minus the fact that she kept scooping food in my bowl, which was sweet of her, but she really really thinks that I just starve myself. I was really full.)
“Health is not a commodity. Risk factors are not disease. Aging is not an illness. To fix a problem is easy, to sit with another suffering is hard. Doing all we can is not the same as doing what we should. Quality is more than metrics. Patients cannot see outside their pain, we cannot see in, relationship is the only bridge between. Time is precious; we spend it on what we value. The most common condition we treat is unhappiness. And the greatest obstacle to treating a patient’s unhappiness is our own. Nothing is more patient-centered than the process of change. Doctors expect too much from data and not enough from conversation. Community is a locus of healing, not the hospital or the clinic. The foundation of medicine is friendship, conversation and hope.”—
—David Loxtercamp, author of A Measure of Days: The Journal of a Country Doctor, as read in his interview with NPR’s Liane Hansen. (via beingblog)
Thanks Kevin! Kevin and I were born two weeks apart back in St. Louis and have remained best friends ever since…
Over 1.5 million children die every year from preventable diarrhea in the world.
That’s way too many kids dying and parents suffering from the loss of a beautiful child.
And this is almost 100% preventable with vaccines. For those people who are spreading the anti-vaccine gospel, shame on you. Vaccines are one of humankind’s most profound accomplishments. And I’m sure each and every child out of that 1.5 million would thank you for objectively understanding the issue and intelligently changing your stance.