September 2009
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Ever feel like
you just aren’t where you want to be in life and every day you just feel like crying cause everything gets so frustrating? yep, thats what i feel like. this phase in life kinda sucks. college is confusing and i dont want to be here. i dunno what i’m feeling but i’m frustrated and confused. AH. who knows. i just wish i could figure things out and be productive. I just cant. it’s so not me and I’m not sure how to change it. and today kinda sucks. boo…
I’m in the same boat. I think it is just because I’m taking all my core classes right now so I still feel like I am in high school. I just want to actually start doing something with my life. I feel so held back by work and school. I have like nothing to look forward to. It is so depressing.
On days like these I always go for some ice cream. But for the most part, enjoy the sunshine, you’re alive. Frustration and routine will only get worse if you dwell on it too long. You’re life is productive and you are purposeful, if you don’t feel that way, go out and make someone else happy, that always makes me feel better :]
best of luck to you both beautiful ladies!
cold weather
the chilly breezes; the shivering atmosphere; the refreshing wind; the tingling sensation; the loss of feeling within extremities; the cold fall weather.
NOT:
mosquitoes that bite through clothing. I look like a strawberry patch and I am NOT remotely okay with it in anyway.
I do like the wind chimes going off outside my window, they have a lovely noise to them…Perhaps we’ll clear off the patio of bird crap and pigeon territory to have a little sitting nook when we all have our cups of tea..
yeah, that sounds like a plan <3
re-experience
the memories of this past weekend. You know who you are.
“It’s weird, like when you’re in love, all of a sudden you’re hearing all of these love songs for the first time, and it feels like the singer is just talking to you alone, reading your mind. When you’re grieving, it’s the same thing. I’m in tune with all the sadness of the world suddenly. You know, songs find you, poems find you, people find you.”
—(via eletheowl)
Dear Kristina
Philip and I were talking about how great you and Steven were and how he was in town and how you were really really happy and how eating dinner with you guys at prom was fun
and then you drove up in your car and we smiled and laughed and you and I blew kisses at each other.
Just saying, I thought it was an amazing coincidence…and I never got your texts? I waited for them allll day :(
ANYWHHOOOO I love you :]
Steven only got to stay from friday night to 5 AM this morning,
and perhaps I have the wrong phone number? TEXT MEE, and yes I’m so so so happy when that boy is in my zone, I’ve missed him too much :] and Thanks! you’re just tooooo sweet ! :D
I spent
31 Hours with my boo here in my new “home.” It was definitely one of those “I’m so happy I might just die” kind of weekends. I’ve missed him so much, those short 31 hours were completely worth it <3
but...
you can’t have everything.
“You always get in this shitty mood. You ALWAYS get in this shitty mood. You don’t believe it? Let me illustrate it for you; he does something, something so small that pisses you off to no means necessary. Here I am trying to make you happy doing a million different things left and right just to even get a smile. All he has to do is text that he’s thinking of you and you light up like there’s no tomorrow. I know you love him, you don’t have to prove it to anyone; you love him.”
—never speak of this, again
