just got a bath and my nailpolish didn’t chip in the process! WHAT A DAY! :]
i will never admit how scared i get for you. the end.
Post B.A (a cyclical story)
After an all nighter with a keyboard and a copy of Jean Rhys Wide Sargasso Sea, I survived on nothing but 2 large bottles of water, 2 Redbulls and 1 Vitamin energy to keep myself somewhat productive, somewhat awake, and somewhat focused. I forgot to remind myself that redbull causes me to throw up, so this morning was a small vomit fest, however, that is something I normally wouldn’t share....
Why do I always put things off? I wish I didn’t procrastinate too much. SOMEONE STEAL MY PW AND LOG ME OFF AND NOT ALLOW ME TO SIGN ON TO THINGS UNTIL I FINISH! :[
me: I'm really hungry and I need a quick lunch before I cheer
Mo: That sounds like an adventure
me: Do you know a quick place I can catch food?
Mo: Catch food? the river?
Chuc Mung Nam Moi
my native tounge tells you, Happy New Year. On top of that, I spent a significant amount of time with family, who miraculously live 3 hours away, allowing us, the only family to live this far to travel just to see them. WONDERFUL! Nothing against it really, I enjoy the time spent with family and the food consumed with family, it’s just the 3 hour drive I have to endure/drive myself. Either...
I hate waking up and feeling completely down. Someone from french class told me it was from a lack of sunshine, which is a complete lie because I spend more tha 55% of my day outside anyways. It troubles me still to think that I woke up on a regular day off upset, completely upset. Someone else suggested that my sleep deprivation was a cause of it. I wasn’t too sure of that either...
someone to make singing videos with, yah? Any takers? Yah? YAH?! haha Just kidding, sort of.
Is it bad that I never know what to say or when to say things? Every time something life threatening is holding down a personal acquaintance or friend or family, even, I sit with thousands of thoughts but nothing to say. It’s a terrible habit, and I want to get out of it. OR:// When there is an opportunity to speak out about something, to “share” and indulge in yourself for...
more fragile than glass. Sad news can upset the balance in a good day.
is a lot smaller than we think it is. relations + other relations= somehow they all intertwine. It’s exciting really. My trip to dallas with the best friend (Apearl) is cancelled because we forgot to look ahead haha. That’s okay, we’ll make up to our lost time with countless hours of shopping and talking, the two things we do better than anyone. 3 Months to date. YEAH! I like...
Calvin: Ew I just tasted a Bell sprout!
Calvin: I mean a bean sprout!
Me: Isn't Bellsprout a poke-mon?
Steven: YOU WOULD KNOW!
Everyone joins in gay laughter
Me: Yeah so earlier today I allowed my brother to drive my car for a block or two.
Steven: I already know.
Me: WHAT THE CREEP?!
Steven: Oh he like came up to me and whispered it into my ear saying "I got to drive today!"
Me: Oh...He's dumb.
Steven: You've created a monster.
i take it back
the apology and the disappointment and guilt you made me feel last night. Good going.
I’ve let you down before and here I am pitying myself about it. I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry.
coffee. Never again . can’t do it again. oh and I love you, in case you didn’t know
i beg my bones to be good but they keep clicking music and i spin in the...– Lucille Clifton, the poet
Thank’s Slyvia! :D my ultimate time killer! that and listening to my solo and ensemble pieces praying that this year i don’t let anyone down. 5 Things found in my bag: ☆ softlips ☆ Camera ☆ 1.7 oz of Burberry London ☆ zebra sunglasses ☆ Steven’s Note :] 5 Things found in my wallet: ☆ Insurence card ☆ driver’s license ☆ Rewards card for Kenny’s ☆ April’s Senior pic...
Sleep is required
especially during “high stress times” dead week and everything before exams. Which originally should have been scheduled BEFORE winter break. Damn you, legislation and your foul planning ways. Thanks to you, I graduate on a WEDNESDAY. How. Inconvenient. For. EVERYONE. Considering I still have packets of work for Biology, sleep is an order. I cannot think if I cannot sleep. Call it a...
The worst case:
I’ve been diagnosed with senior-itus. I fail at doing any amount of work in school. I spend more time sleeping/daydreaming during class then I do awake and alert. My motivation has died and I’d much rather skip cheer class than show up to do NOTHING. My brain is fried, and the 2nd semester has yet to start. I’m a whiner. I think exams should have been before winter break. Kill me...
it came to a whole list of re-edited resolutions which I should have though of originally yet failed to come up with considering i was under the influence (aka, really lazy and fell into my bed and slumbered throughout the night only to be awakened to the sound of church and Steven shopping. Do one thing that is out of the ordinary once a month. Start working out as a habit, not as a...
goes by too quickly sometimes. wayyy too quickly :[
L.E.D ads with the reminder to “drive safely” light up the streets. well, the access roads. Welcome to the new years, Loves. May you all have a SAFE and FUN new years day