December 2008
November 2008
Eventful
Driving from Houston home = disaster. Car broke, I panicked.
However ”Everytime I look at you, the world just melts away. All my troubles, all my fears just melt in your affection. You see me at my weakest, but you take me as I am, and when I fall you offer me a softer place to land…”
hells yeah, Push- Sarah McLachlan.
result
I’m heading out to sleep, even a mediocre doctor could’ve told me I needed it.
FU....
ture.
future
I just read someones blog about their future, and frankly I’m just as lost as they are. I’m completely unsure of what’s going to happen. I’m completely afraid of what could happen within the next 6 months or so. I don’t know anything anymore and I’m having those monthly panic attacks where everything seems terribly wrong and all I can do to have...
I miss you
turn out the lights, the lights, the l-i-e-ights.
Dear
God of colleges and stuff(s),
Please forbid I ever stay in Austin, Texas and end up somewhere studying whatever the hell I need to study. May I end up with just enough money to go to Baylor, without the help of my parents (since they refuse to help me with anything anymore) and may their lives be very happy when I leave,
because I already KNOW my dad can’t wait to see me out of the house,...
I am
currently up in arms worried about you. I know, you told me NOT to worry, but what’s a girl gotta do? There could possibly be a 3 month period where you and I can only talk behind glass walls. I am so stressed for you BEYOND belief, after seeing you walk out of my house and back into your car, my heart was dropping. My mind is beyond boggled, my worried senses are beyond worrying, I...
Thankful for
Normally I’d wait until THANKSGIVING before I even type up these types of blogs. However, due to recent events, and the fact that I won’t be home during Thanksgiving break I might as well spit them out now while I can remember them in their ‘pure state’ rather than being forced to think of a list only to feel guilty for a good portion of it.
1. Parents I’ve grown up...
i need:
-Goofy neon sunglasses (RUE 21) -some gangster hat that’s white (STEVEN) -Bright obnoxious Neon clothing that I don’t already own (ANYWHERE) -To get over the flu. (NOW) -YOU.
I actually don’t know if it’s the flu, but that’s the only medicine my parents feed me. ITS DISGUSTING, much like mulch, and disgustingness, and medicinaly. I went shopping yesterday, I need to...
Winter Song
More of, I had a horrible dream while napping. Now I’m terrified to sleep. I want someone to cuddle with (AHEM). Still too scared to sleep.
This never fel so wrong, cause you’re not where you belong, inside my arms.
something like that right?
Why oh why.
“I wanted him just to choose me, you know, cause nature had already done it....”
– The Color Purple Alice Walker
Starting
-Procrastinate less. -365 project. -work harder.
to find that you’re fitting right into the grooves of my odd personality, like compliments. Yes, I’m more articulate in writing, sort-of. Not really. More eloquent? I wish. At peace? Hells yeah. Happy? Beyond belief. Don’t question too much, the answers are right there. 1. I like you. 2. I like you, a lot. 3. I’ve known you...
required listening.
finalized.
I don’t want anything for Christmas.
I got EVERYTHING I’ll ever need ;] well…someone COULD take me to get my necklace ENGRAVED :D Lesson Learned: From parents who couldn’t care enough, from people who RAISED me to turn me down at an event they agreed to do so long ago. From the same people who brought you, me. I come to you TELLING you, they hate me. It’s only...
X-mas List
Inspired by Sylvia
-McCAIN TO BE PRESIDENT -a cute layering scarf that’s in a neutral color (everything but brown, please) -CARDIGANS YES YES YES! -a cute dress -a CAR (preferbly one in white with a HUGE pink bow on top.) -Anything from V.S. Pink :D -Any accessory that is heart shaped and silver! (RINGS!) -someone to fix mypod -flats
…more to come.
Romeo take me Somewhere we can be alone,...
I had
a good cry today. On one note, it was over a variety of things, rather than focus it on one subject, blah blah, bleh bleck. 1. RACE FOR THE CURE. so as a cheerleader, we cheered at the event, I saw more than 29387429347 survivors cry. I wanted to cry. No. I cried. Especially when we saw “Michelle’s Angels” walk along (who was an old cheer coach at my high school) and in her...
